I don't even think I remember how to write

Why did I stop writing? Looking back on old entries is a strange thing because I feel so distant from the person who wrote it. This separation might not necessarily be caused by changes in myself over time but rather general detachment from my own feelings. It is as if reading uses the logical side of my brain but writing can access the typically inaccessible emotional side.

When I think about it now though I realize that is not that I do not feel strong emotions. I just don't understand them. Instead whenever I feel more emotional, I am more encompassed by an emotionally unstable haze that aren't distinct feelings of anger or sadness. Instead I say I'm in a "funk," which says nothing and means nothing. So really writing about how I feel is my way of using my logic to decipher my feelings.

God, I do not know what it is really but it sure feels good to form words out of this "funk."