Honestly

I don't really know how I feel or what this feeling means or how I'm supposed to be and act because most of the time I'm just trying to find the right thing to do but it comes out wrong. It's like what it will be like when I try to explain myself because none of the words will sound right for what I want to say because I'm still not sure what I want to say. Maybe I shouldn't let the words form so spontaneously because it's so easy to say things you don't mean when you're under pressure, in the moment