that really are the same
yet there was this nagging feeling
that I knew that they weren't really
that something that I wouldn't have known otherwise
had I not seen them side by side
that something that was really an absence of something
that void that didn't mean anything before but
feels oppressive now like a pressure against my chest
making me want to push back harder
for a little longer
waiting for sweet release
but knowing that it won't come
the funny thing is that the easier thing is actually the harder thing
but only because I make it so
again with "the funny thing is that the easier thing is actually the harder thing
ReplyDeletebut only because I make it so" I can so completely relate to that truth, it makes me smile but it really is like this, not only on a personal basis but looking at humanity and how things run these days this is also true for pretty much all of us beings on this rock, nice one..
Merry Christmas to you and your family. Hope all is well your end and that you have a good, relaxed and perhaps contemplative time...
ReplyDeleteDid you go traveling in the end? Been a long time since I been here and thought I might be able to read a new post... hmm well perhaps you are busy..
Sooo if you don't mind me asking, how's life treating you? Would be nice to have some news ;)
All the best! TL
Life took over for a little while and I find myself less inclined to introspect when I am content. So in some ways it's good that I haven't written a long time.
DeleteI ended up finding a job and an apartment in the same city that I was in for school. Sometimes it feels like everything is in its right place, that everything is coming together the way it should be.
Now that the dust has settled from the transition period, I have time to take a step back and really evaluate whether I really do feel this way, and I guess that's where I am now.
I feel narcissistic talking so singularly about myself but I guess that's what blogs are for. I hope life finds you well and I'd like to hear about how life is treating you