dailyweeksauce

As much as I enjoy reading old posts, some of them are hard to read. Partly because I forgot feeling those things and partly because it reminds me of how much I haven't changed. It is easy for me to detach myself from almost anything, but really I detach myself because it is easy. Reading my old thoughts and feelings remind me that I am not really a detached person, but that I am a person who detaches.

I was driving 3 hours from my parents' house back home and normally I just turn up my music so I can mindlessly drive and tune out. This time I turned off the music completely and sat in silence with my own thoughts. Within a larger perspective, I think that I can be this way in life, where I let the noise take over. Since there's so much noise, I don't get to think about anything. Instead I just follow the beat and let intuition and impulse guide me. Sometimes I think I need to turn down the volume now and again.