that really are the same
yet there was this nagging feeling
that I knew that they weren't really
that something that I wouldn't have known otherwise
had I not seen them side by side
that something that was really an absence of something
that void that didn't mean anything before but
feels oppressive now like a pressure against my chest
making me want to push back harder
for a little longer
waiting for sweet release
but knowing that it won't come
the funny thing is that the easier thing is actually the harder thing
but only because I make it so
