Sometimes I feel like I could just lay here forever

Like I could push away everything because everything is really nothing if you hardly think about it

Sometimes I forget that there is no forever and that is why I can't just lay here

Because then it really will be nothing when it all comes down to it

When I think about it all, I'll find that I forgot to do anything about it

There is something very hard for me to do and it is to think about my life as this tangible finite thing and I think this difficulty lends itself to how I perceive it, which affects how I try to live it. This is why I sometimes get bogged down by little things or why I can easily turn on autopilot and coast through my life so mindlessly. I think that sometimes I forget that living my life means that I need to be active participant, that what my life amounts to is a result of how much I put into it and that I should continuously be living each day with this mindset.