i get really

anxious at work,
so apologies if you were sideswept
by my restlessness.

Working hard like usual

540 dollars

(including taxes) gets you to madrid for three weeks

put that on my credit card, right quick

but

i don't want to go to work today

forgot

about that last post entirely until right now

drinking

wine in the summertime

this wine's pretty foul

i might get sick

just killed a mosquito on the computer screen

i can see the bright dots on the edge of my lashes

thinks the moral of the story is lost

might accidentally pass out in the living room 

with a thermos half full

wouldn't that be funny in the funny way where

it's not really funny at all

sweep those mines

i just

want to say i'm sorry
and i just want to rewind
or slow down or pause
the play button's jammed in
for now i've put it all on mute

i feel a little bit

like i'm falling apart; at the same time
i feel like i don't feel anything

the weird thing is

nothing's changed

Every night

since I've been back home I have had a dream
what's going on

why